Bright line Spectrum

 August 30th 2020 We drove to New Mexico to pick up our little baby. He is a handful, but I love him.

 School has been a journey. I have to say; going to my first semester of college through zoom video calls was weird at first, but I really enjoy it now. It's my little introverted-slice-of-heaven.  One of the reasons being I do not have to drive 1 and 1/2 hours to school. Next year was approved to have school over the internet as well. Since there really hasn't been any progress with the coronavirus. Most people are tired of being inside all the time or not being able to visit their favorite restaurant or bar. I don't mind, I get my food to go.  I am excited because I decided to move forward and do something with my art. Going to start my enamel pins. I am super nervous because college has been hectic, plus both jobs, and little Gatsby but also trying to find the time to draw. This could be the ADHD talking, but I am on the quest to focus.

      Today marks an important event in my life. On June 16th, 2020 I have officially enrolled as a full time college student for SJSU. I am nervous because I would have to quit my job. I won't be making as much money anymore. There comes a time when you need to take risks and bet on yourself. I've been working two jobs while trying to finish up community college for the last 6 years. I've struggled and crumbled under stress. I've been miserable working two jobs I have no passion for.  I had no assistance. Now, I am almost there, I am almost at the end of the finish line. It is time to invest in myself. Even if I have to live off of unemployment for a while and suffer day to day wondering how am I going to afford rent. I got to do this. Now I need to save up some money this summer for the long year ahead.

So I came to the conclusion that I am going to make an "official" website to blog on. I am going to put this into the universe, so I actually do it. I love this blog though, it's user friendly and I am already attached to it.  Maybe I'll just post on here more often? Since writing is my passion, I need to write more. I don't even draw anymore, I have no idea why....or maybe it's because I play too many video games and read too many books. I have so many hobbies. Help me!       I  want to intern or even work for Google one day. I want to be part of a company I am passionate about. I want to help create, work, even stress at a job I am happy to go to. I would also like to work at Twitch, Riot Games or DC Comics......or in publishing. I have so many interests it may seem that I am not passionate just greedy but I love all these companies. They inspire greatness in me. I've been working for CVS for seven years. I have been working as a teacher's assista...

I forgot about this.... I completely forgot about this blogging site. I wanted to make a brand new one......Why? I don't know this was before Wordpress was popular or before I knew how to make my own website. Should I just create my own website or stick to this?  I own the domain "1-upexpress.com"  I just need to use it. 

I wrote this in a moment of boredom because I picture doodles in my head, and write down words to those images I imagine. In hopes that I would make the artwork for those words one day; when I found the moment. I open my eyes the sky glows pink Transformed to a place of  sugar plum treats Bubble gum blossoms and Chocolate Streams Marshmallow Clouds and Lollipop Trees I wipe my eyes, but where do I reside? The image starts to stir.. My hands become fur... My face transforms My vision blurs What is becoming? The sky grows gray Under the nightmare shade Your  Hands now claws Your  Feet now paws Panic sets in Your nightmare begins You scream, but it's a howl You cry, and it's a growl The world fades... You drift away, to present day With a fright, In the middle of the night

With The Earth When I am dead my dearest, Pick up your guitar And play a melody for me Channel that dark energy play those ivory keys for me Do not be down Do not frown Don't let sorrow fill your heart Help your creativity spark Let the music fill your heart Spread my ashes Beneath a tree So there will always be a place Where you can find me I am with the Earth, and always here So don't you ever cry not now.. not here